I’m not sure love is the right word. I’ve been in love. Love hurts and this, this feels good. It makes my heart swell and my stomach tighten when I laugh. This is the laughter that makes creases in the far corners of my eyes and brings out his beautiful smile. Not his camera smile, his real smile. Matched with confidence, it’s strong and happy. I can see it in his blue eyes and for a moment I’m reassured he wants me there with him. I know I do not yet love the boy. But I love his smile. I love the fact that when I’m around him, I don’t want to use words. All I want is to see his perfect smile and melt into his arms and be warm. So I guess one could say I love the circumstance. And if I’d take it a little further, this love doesn’t quite hurt like the rest.
August 18th, 2014